now it’s real running,

2.4km? 24km? 240km? 2400km?

No, just a word away.

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increase of content is assured.

seven,

on the eleventh.

realization strikes.

cause i realized you aren’t the one i confide in anymore.
cause i realized that your presence distants away from me.
cause i realized i am trying to please no one, but you.
cause i realized you treat me like a nobody on the streets.
cause i realized you play only a part-time role in my life.
cause i realized you were no longer there when i needed you.
cause i realized when i called, you weren’t on the other side.
cause i realized an ending is drawing near, but im pushing it away.
cause i realized i am deluding myself, but i delude myself to believe im not deluding.
cause i realized i still need you, very much.
cause i realized, you’re still the one i want.

this is the best i can do; and the rest is up to you.

hide,

no one knows.

You can’t force maturity and sensitivity.
(My heart can’t possibly break, when it wasn’t whole to start with.)
Can life have ears? I need a listener, now.

I know I can’t win, cause life’s always the victor.

even heroes have the right to dream.
Why can’t I dream?
I don’t want to expect too much from whoever’s around me.
but i have to learn to take one step at a time.
i shall take failures as stepping stones, and just let things go.
this is the way of life anyway, isn’t it?
this is a one-way road. I have to oblige even though my conscience’s fighting hard inside.
I am fighting my tears, still hoping a change for the better.

I am subconsciously typing.
I just know these are what my conscience wishes to reveal, so as to not let its owner regret when it’s too late.
I’m just too impatient to get things done, too impatient to the extent that i am getting wearied.
I need to give myself a break, give everyone a break.

I shall not be naive anymore.
living life with what it offers has always been the way i lead my life.
and it’s going to prevail.
i’m not letting myself down.

forging strength from weakness.

contemplate,

nothing.

a post after a long time.
this post should be dated back but because of poor time management, i did not have time to post this up.
from revision to results to work attachment.

apologies cause i tried my best to upload the pictures but the system sucked and i had no choice but to cancel it.
shall upload it the next time, provided the system does not fail me.

shall post again another time.
(hopefully soon)

review,

evaluation.

the worst that i feared, happened.
failing to meet my expectations, was worse than anything else.
unbelief, but it struck that i had to accept reality somehow.
it may be my worse, but i worked hard for it.
why did i study till the wee hours for some subjects?
why did i do assessment books for?
why did i revise for?
zilch.

what’s next?
all work, and no play.
i’d rather be a dull Jack than to disappoint myself, and those around me who pin their hopes on me.
disappointing, very.
i learnt the essence of humanity, the competition in society and the stress we may receive.
but i am going to push on to the very end.
i am not going to let myself fall into the hands of temptations again.

i fell this time.
how am i going to stand?
especially with self-enmity.

fall,

inferior.

stones which make us fall.
disappointment, again and again.
inferiority, inevitable.

dead.

ignition,

flame.

it’s just in twenty hours time,
when we will be receiving all the papers, results and whatever not.

yet i am succumbing to the negative feelings i have inside.
failure, borderline-pass, whatever.
God, bless me.

storms,

fear.

Literature was all in my mind until a phrase from the vice-principal’s sharing hit me.

“If you want something badly, you will get it.”

Will i?

force,

pressure.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

pressure.

Physics Paper 2 is finally over, a huge load off my mind.
felt that it was still not too bad. (Y)
but E Maths Paper 1 marks was such a turn-off.
nevermind, at least some of the answers were marked wrongly.
(self-comfort)
there’s still hope for E Maths Paper 2.

scars make us stronger, for life.

instance,

feel.

(just a short post before i rush off for my Amaths examination.)

Morning.

it’s great to wake up at eight,
great to feel the equanimity surging through one’s body.
and the fresh air which never fails to invigorate your soul.
Morning.

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hopefully i will be able to fight against temptations
and be posting on the 15th or 16th Oct.
i guess i’ll be too busy to post too.

Amaths, Physics.
there’s nothing i cannot do.
(ya right)